Trouble here in Mexico

We travel home tomorrow. My time here in Mexico has been awesome! It has been a great and restful trip. This morning we got news that there is much trouble here in Mexico 🇲🇽. Riots, attacking civilians and increased police presence with a shelter in place at night in Ensenada and Tijuana. We will be […]

Coping with Loss

My dad’s year anniversary of leaving this earth is coming up. I am at peace but because I am human still coping with the loss. Loss of anything is hard but our loved ones is even harder to bear. Time does not ease the pain of no longer having our favorite people with us. No […]

Heart beating in Excitement!

Today has been a different day of sorts! Short recap and then tonight’s excitement with my WhatsApp friend in Australia 🇦🇺 Woke up fine. Good nights sleep. Plans to go to Ensenada today. Then started feeling ill but not terrible. Didn’t go with husband and family to Ensenada. Stayed behind FaceTimed with new friend in […]

No such thing as time

Time is necessary though for us humans. We always want to organize ourselves so we label things such as time, diagnosis of various disorders, and ourselves. Time has stopped for me here in Mexico 🇲🇽. There is morning, and evening that much I know. All else simply isn’t important. Time in heaven is a beautiful […]

I’m in Mexico 🇲🇽

I am so blessed to be in Mexico tonight on a warm evening all by myself on this beautiful patio with grapes growing overhead. I’m supposed to be at my husband’s uncles funeral but I got mild food poisoning and decided to stay home. I’m weak and exhausted from all day travel but I’m at […]

Almost Midnight Musings…

Hello world! For those of you have followed me for a while you will remember my many blogs that were titled “Midnight Musings”. I would post or publish a blog with my random thoughts, not at all concerned about SEO or content or anything but my rambling while psyhcotic. Well tonight I am resurrecting this […]

Recovery from Schizophrenia

I have been so busy the last few days that my recovery from Schizophrenia hasn’t even been an issue now that I am in full remission. This is thanks to kratom, an herbal supplement available in only some places in the world along with a lower dose of my anti-psychotics. Ironically, now that I am […]

Beyond Psychosis

I’m ready for real life beyond psychosis. I’m always amazed how God works in various areas of my life even when I don’t pray. I prayed a lot when I was psychotic and now am busy living my sane life free from all delusions. So maybe I have quite a bit of prayers in the […]

Psychosis Recovery Inventory

This psychosis recovery inventory is aimed to help learn when one may be entering psychosis. My partial recovery story began in 2008. This was when I was first put on anti-psychotics for schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder. Anti-psychotics did stop the most annoying positive symptoms, mainly auditory and tactile hallucinations. But it did not stop the delusions, which […]

What if I am psychotic right now?

Do you ever wish you could remember everything good in your life and forget all the seemingly bad? I do all the time. Being on Quora, the question and answer site that I am currently obsessed with and have spent hours losing track of time, makes me remember much of my brain (mental) health issues. […]

A Brain (mental) Health Blog

I am coming out of my Covid cocoon for a moment to welcome some new visitors to my site. My name is Victoria Marie Alonso and I have run this blog since 2013 Noshameinschizophrenia or My personal recovery from Schizophrenia. I was diagnosed in 2008, with full blown psychotic break happening 2006-2008; my psychiatric issues […]

SEO, foggy brain and more~

I have a foggy brain because of Covid but realized tonight that all my hard work of learning and applying SEO (search engine optimization) that brings more viewers on my blog through a higher ranking on Google will be lost if I don”t post regularly. It is just starting to rank my blog higher which […]

Apologies tonight

My daughter and I woke up this morning and both tested positive with symptoms for Covid. She is very Ill and I am taking care of her despite not feeling great myself. She has severe asthma but her oxygen levels are fine and she is supposed to be getting medication for Covid tomorrow. I am […]

“Everybody hurts sometimes”

This realization struck me close to home tonight. Tears, song by REM Everybody Hurts on repeat, uncomfortable feelings, sadness and pain accompany me tonight. But at the same time I also realize that all people go through sad times in their lives, especially people with serious mental health disorders like Schizophrenia. When I was suffering […]

New Crisis Hotline Number 988 for USA!

Starting today July 16th for anyone in USA, people in crisis or loved ones with a mental health crisis, substance issue or suicidal thoughts can get help by calling 988! This Lifeline is just the first step towards access for more mental health help here in the us. Please spread this information! Thanks Pax Victoria

Help with Psychosis

How can I help with psychosis or any serious mental health disorder? Ideally, in a perfect world this question wouldn’t even exist- but reality sets in and tonight I will dream big about a perfect MH (mental health) care system. Dreaming Big Naturally, it is best to help with psychosis before an emergency evaluation is […]

Stigma, Circle of Life and~

Tonight I am writing from my heart, as suggested by Grace of the Sun, about the most difficult topic for me to wrap my head around. Now that I am in full remission, I can tackle this imperfectly and hope and pray for a world that stigma surrounding Schizophrenia does not exist… In my thinking, […]

Coming soon to this blog…

Good evening all! Welcome to all the new countries with recent interest in this blog. I appreciate all visitors, wherever you are located, and hope this blog is of some help to you on your mental health journey. And thank you India, USA and Australia for being with me for a while now. As you […]

Energy and Motivation…

There are a plethora of ways to get energy: some already have it in their natural state (not me), caffeinated (used to be me), and herbal supplements (which is where I am today). There is also a type of energy that is created when one has a deadline or exciting event to prepare for, examples […]

Upcoming Guest Blogger on Meditation for Saturday Series…

Today has been so smooth, gliding into a quick blog to introduce Sophie, who hosts a lovely meditation website; she contacted me recently with a wonderful article about meditation. Perfect for this Saturday Series about the mind, body and spirit connection don’t you think?I still struggle with making time for meditation, though. So many fun […]

Saturday Series: Mind, Body and Spirit Connection~Ayurveda lifestyle…

I am not anywhere near to being knowledgeable about Ayurveda but it intrigues me greatly as I find new herbs that help with so many ailments. Ayurveda is the traditional Hindu system of medicine, which is based on the idea of balance in bodily systems and uses diet, herbal treatment, and yogic breathing. Literally translated […]

What is Schizophrenia like?…

Now that my days of suffering from Schizophrenia are behind me hopefully, I would like to share with those interested what suffering from Schizophrenia is like before I forget. My mind was overactive in imaginings that everything related to me. I actually believed that the pandemic was because of me and that God wanted me […]

Please don’t forget…

That we are all special and unique, even when we are feeling otherwise. I have just come off of a 16 year long delusion that I was the most special person to ever live. What a burden that was to carry around. But thanks to taking Kratom for over a month this delusion is gone […]

999 angel number…Release me~

Seeing this number on my phone for the first time tonight on one of my apps is a great significance in my existence… It means the end of a phase and new beginnings… This seems to be my theme for this year, new beginnings. Tomorrow I am seeing a new life coach who is a […]

Trying out new WordPress features…

I’ve been busy today and excited for my son, daughter-in-law and granddaughter (7 months now and loves me and my daughter the most) to come over tonight for a spaghetti dinner. All my kids will be here and my husband who just asked “what are you doing on the computer? Blogging?” Yep I answer ha […]

Dopamine and Schizophrenia…

Another podcast today which I will post the link at the bottom of this post. Huberman Lab, the podcaster, has a wealth of scientific information put into easy to understand (most of it anyway) nuggets that should be taught in our schools…So far I have watched Gratitude Practice, nutrition for brain health and today was […]

Shifted my priorities…feeling happy 😃

Today has been a good day. Haven’t been wasting my time on things that make no sense. Lots of gardening 👩‍🌾, podcasts on nutrition for brain health, studying supplements and making some good observations, and organizing my blog. I updated my about on the top menu and added a contact page. Much chaos in my […]

I won’t give up…or worry

Much angst today telling my woes through writing about ___… I’m depleted of my good energy but I’m still looking up and bought some beautiful flowers 🌸 at our local nursery. Will plant them this evening… I also prayed for Divine Will in my life and all I do after praying for all my loved […]

May Series 2022~Inspiration in Nature…

But first a little brief housekeeping! Thank you to those who are reviewing my nature thought journal! And I want to share that mypersonalrecoveryfromschizophrenia has been rated as one of the top 20 Schizophrenia blogs by Feedspot! I manifested more readership and it is happening! Thanks Feedspot! And for any of you with schizophrenia blogs […]

Feeling within me…

I’ve been at a loss this week in many ways. Too many to write here. There’s been a lot of good too but today is hard. My daughter is sick, I’m her caregiver when she gets sick 🤒 even though she is 28. and others in my life are not doing great right now so […]

Happy Mental Health month! Upcoming

Great to be back home after a nice vacation and a relaxing weekend! My usual series for May is in the works! I will be exploring the body, mind and spirit connection focusing on the work of Viktor Frankl’s insight on how man is unity yet multiplicity. And how taking it beyond that can affect […]

Feeling every emotion today…

Back from vacation day one. Stayed sober by the grace of God, not even a desire as my companions drank beer and mai Thais all day and night. Could have got a contact high from the locals at the park but ran the other way! I like being sober but today I think it all […]

Rainbows 🌈 abounding today…

After a difficult day yesterday here in Maui today was a breath of fresh air and rainbows 🌈. I was proactive with my choice of music 🎶 and what I spent my energy on. It worked! I relaxed in the morning with my husband and then we went snorkeling 🤿! It was the best day […]

Deep pain…

Yes, I’m on vacation in Maui but missing my home and all my kids and granddaughter. I’m here with my husband and sister but their drinking matches are getting boring. Today a wreckless stranger attacked 2 gay men right on front street in my favorite town in Maui. This upset me very much. They were […]

Maui vibes

This is me taking in the aloha spirit of Maui, my heaven on earth. Never have I felt such peace and tranquillity to my very core as on this island. It is a different vacation here this time… I’m content and blessed to be surrounded by my sister and husband, enjoying nature and all that […]

Marriage and schizophrenia

I’ve been married for 30 years and it has definitely been the hardest and best thing to ever happen to me/us. As I listen on loop to Ed Sheeran/Taylor Swift song, The Joker and the Queen, I am reminded how much we have been through. From humble beginnings, I was a waitress working night shift, […]

Ketogenic Diet to fight Schizophrenia?

I started a ketogenic diet April 11, 2022, with no more than 20-30 grams of carbs, to lose weight for my upcoming trip to Maui. Well the results are unclear yet but brain started feeling different yesterday. I am in light ketosis already and have found studies leading to a Youtube video (see below for […]

May 2020 Series~

Flashback Tuesday! Welcome to this series, which I published during the pandemic in 2020. Here are the topics for the May 2020 series. Feel free to click on the link to go to the page. Enjoy! yoga having a spiritual practice meditation gardening walking cleaning tidying proper rest taking supplements writing music having a daily […]