Are things meant to be? Or do we have a hand in our fate? How do we know what we need? I do not have the answers to these questions tonight and won’t until I am on the other side. With my dad I love my life. I am not complaining about my lack of […]
Arrived home safely from ten day trip to Mexico 🇲🇽! I’m so glad to be home! But it’s funny I’m so exhausted from my wonderful stay, I’m a bit overwhelmed with gratitude to God and all the friends and family prayers, tiredness and love for all that I’m still blogging in my favorite chair with […]
We travel home tomorrow. My time here in Mexico has been awesome! It has been a great and restful trip. This morning we got news that there is much trouble here in Mexico 🇲🇽. Riots, attacking civilians and increased police presence with a shelter in place at night in Ensenada and Tijuana. We will be […]
When I first reached out to help Pammie B. A kind lady on Facebook two weeks ago, I had no idea what I was getting into. The bond we share of love, laughter and sisterhood is unbreakable! I wake up and she will somehow know and message me. I will be up late wishing she […]
Greetings world! Today I woke up at 5 am and a lot has happened already. It’s now a little after 1pm. I was cooking breakfast for everyone and finally got a call from the homeopathic doctor in India 🇮🇳 I believe. She got straight to the symptoms, assessing the past 16 years and earlier. It […]
My dad’s year anniversary of leaving this earth is coming up. I am at peace but because I am human still coping with the loss. Loss of anything is hard but our loved ones is even harder to bear. Time does not ease the pain of no longer having our favorite people with us. No […]
Today has been a different day of sorts! Short recap and then tonight’s excitement with my WhatsApp friend in Australia 🇦🇺 Woke up fine. Good nights sleep. Plans to go to Ensenada today. Then started feeling ill but not terrible. Didn’t go with husband and family to Ensenada. Stayed behind FaceTimed with new friend in […]
Good evening! 🇺🇸 To my fellow Americans living with Schizophrenia or any loved ones: I just completed a survey that I believe was worthy of a half hour of my time. I invite anyone who is living in the United States who is over 18 and living with Schizophrenia or loved ones to take the […]
I taught this adaptation of some exercises I learned about fighting anxiety or as I choose to say win over anxiety. This sequence takes 20-30 minutes but will provide a mini version below. Let me know if it works for you! Again this is a combination of various treatment I have picked up. 1. Get […]
Time is necessary though for us humans. We always want to organize ourselves so we label things such as time, diagnosis of various disorders, and ourselves. Time has stopped for me here in Mexico 🇲🇽. There is morning, and evening that much I know. All else simply isn’t important. Time in heaven is a beautiful […]
So much to think about and much I can’t share. My life still isn’t boring even in Mexico 🇲🇽 Today I was able to help my mother in law much of today. And I will always help her if it is in my power. That is all I will say about that except for one […]
Which comes first mental health issues or drug addiction? I can speak from my experience and my observations only. As usual comments are welcome! I have struggled from both. Mental health issues began for me in the 8th grade and drug addiction soon followed. My parents did their best but the controlling environment didn’t help. […]
I am so blessed to be in Mexico tonight on a warm evening all by myself on this beautiful patio with grapes growing overhead. I’m supposed to be at my husband’s uncles funeral but I got mild food poisoning and decided to stay home. I’m weak and exhausted from all day travel but I’m at […]
I have had an extremely difficult day but having a friend to share it all with has been the biggest blessing. It is physical pain but like I’ve said before I prefer that over mental anguish any day. I met my new friend who has become a confidante, inspiration and true friend in every sense […]
Hello world! For those of you have followed me for a while you will remember my many blogs that were titled “Midnight Musings”. I would post or publish a blog with my random thoughts, not at all concerned about SEO or content or anything but my rambling while psyhcotic. Well tonight I am resurrecting this […]
I have been so busy the last few days that my recovery from Schizophrenia hasn’t even been an issue now that I am in full remission. This is thanks to kratom, an herbal supplement available in only some places in the world along with a lower dose of my anti-psychotics. Ironically, now that I am […]
I’m ready for real life beyond psychosis. I’m always amazed how God works in various areas of my life even when I don’t pray. I prayed a lot when I was psychotic and now am busy living my sane life free from all delusions. So maybe I have quite a bit of prayers in the […]
This psychosis recovery inventory is aimed to help learn when one may be entering psychosis. My partial recovery story began in 2008. This was when I was first put on anti-psychotics for schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder. Anti-psychotics did stop the most annoying positive symptoms, mainly auditory and tactile hallucinations. But it did not stop the delusions, which […]
Victoria eagerly introduces a guest article writer on coping with downsizing, discussion of peer support and looking for people with schizophrenia who take injections for a study
Victoria struggles with labeling herself with Schizophrenia/Schizoaffective Disorder so decides to blog about it to find an answer…
Victoria finally shares her story at the ER this week, avoided full blown psychotic episode and more…
Do you ever wish you could remember everything good in your life and forget all the seemingly bad? I do all the time. Being on Quora, the question and answer site that I am currently obsessed with and have spent hours losing track of time, makes me remember much of my brain (mental) health issues. […]
I am coming out of my Covid cocoon for a moment to welcome some new visitors to my site. My name is Victoria Marie Alonso and I have run this blog since 2013 Noshameinschizophrenia or My personal recovery from Schizophrenia. I was diagnosed in 2008, with full blown psychotic break happening 2006-2008; my psychiatric issues […]
I have a foggy brain because of Covid but realized tonight that all my hard work of learning and applying SEO (search engine optimization) that brings more viewers on my blog through a higher ranking on Google will be lost if I don”t post regularly. It is just starting to rank my blog higher which […]
My daughter and I woke up this morning and both tested positive with symptoms for Covid. She is very Ill and I am taking care of her despite not feeling great myself. She has severe asthma but her oxygen levels are fine and she is supposed to be getting medication for Covid tomorrow. I am […]
This realization struck me close to home tonight. Tears, song by REM Everybody Hurts on repeat, uncomfortable feelings, sadness and pain accompany me tonight. But at the same time I also realize that all people go through sad times in their lives, especially people with serious mental health disorders like Schizophrenia. When I was suffering […]
Today was my late brother in law’s Celebration of life and it was fantastic! Jimmy was honored by many people from young to old and every age in between. My sister was the happiest I have ever seen except for when she was with her Jim. This makes me terribly happy and sad at the […]
Starting today July 16th for anyone in USA, people in crisis or loved ones with a mental health crisis, substance issue or suicidal thoughts can get help by calling 988! This Lifeline is just the first step towards access for more mental health help here in the us. Please spread this information! Thanks Pax Victoria
It is a personal journey to do this and looks different for every person. Although, the Saturday Series is not happening anymore, I will still be blogging about the mind, body and spirit connection in various blogs. It is still very much a part of my journey to nurture all three areas to be the […]
How can I help with psychosis or any serious mental health disorder? Ideally, in a perfect world this question wouldn’t even exist- but reality sets in and tonight I will dream big about a perfect MH (mental health) care system. Dreaming Big Naturally, it is best to help with psychosis before an emergency evaluation is […]
Today was eye-opening for many reasons. I feel love differently now that I am not psychotic, not that I didn’t before, but somehow it has changed vastly since I began taking Kratom. My life is far from perfect though but for me today and tonight I feel very blessed, to be alive, to hold space […]
“What about the world of a schizophrenic? Maybe it’s as real as our world. Maybe we cannot say that we are in touch with reality and he is not, but … Schizophrenia . A Mental Disorder not A Character Flaw .
Tonight I am writing from my heart, as suggested by Grace of the Sun, about the most difficult topic for me to wrap my head around. Now that I am in full remission, I can tackle this imperfectly and hope and pray for a world that stigma surrounding Schizophrenia does not exist… In my thinking, […]
Victoria takes her time tonight to share what it is like to no longer be delusional~
Victoria blogs today about being so much more than her diagnosis and shares her upcoming July line-up.
Welcome all Readers:) Today we will be focusing on how the body helps us in so many ways if we pay attention to its different needs mainly~ proper nutrition, exercise, sleep and rest, and managing stress. If I undervalue any of these areas, my mental health seems to suffer. By narrowing it down, we can […]
Victoria talking about the importance of taking care our our bodies, to be able to do more of what we love.
Saturday Series Blog on Consciousness and an announcement I’m very excited about:)
Good evening all! Welcome to all the new countries with recent interest in this blog. I appreciate all visitors, wherever you are located, and hope this blog is of some help to you on your mental health journey. And thank you India, USA and Australia for being with me for a while now. As you […]
There are a plethora of ways to get energy: some already have it in their natural state (not me), caffeinated (used to be me), and herbal supplements (which is where I am today). There is also a type of energy that is created when one has a deadline or exciting event to prepare for, examples […]
Today has been so smooth, gliding into a quick blog to introduce Sophie, who hosts a lovely meditation website; she contacted me recently with a wonderful article about meditation. Perfect for this Saturday Series about the mind, body and spirit connection don’t you think?I still struggle with making time for meditation, though. So many fun […]
Hello world! Happy today for many reasons. Today started with an opportunity to tell my Schizoaffective Disorder story through Healthy Stories Project focusing on the depression part of my disorder, mainly. I am not depressed anymore and haven’t been for a while, but I remember it well. I remember years ago being so fatigued that […]
I am not anywhere near to being knowledgeable about Ayurveda but it intrigues me greatly as I find new herbs that help with so many ailments. Ayurveda is the traditional Hindu system of medicine, which is based on the idea of balance in bodily systems and uses diet, herbal treatment, and yogic breathing. Literally translated […]
Now that my days of suffering from Schizophrenia are behind me hopefully, I would like to share with those interested what suffering from Schizophrenia is like before I forget. My mind was overactive in imaginings that everything related to me. I actually believed that the pandemic was because of me and that God wanted me […]
Welcome Readers to my second Saturday series. This week has been an interesting one with much studies on Consciousness but last night I found a book on Natural remedies for anxiety so am sharing what I learned and am already practicing. Today’s focus is the mind which also affects our physical and spirit aspects as […]
That we are all special and unique, even when we are feeling otherwise. I have just come off of a 16 year long delusion that I was the most special person to ever live. What a burden that was to carry around. But thanks to taking Kratom for over a month this delusion is gone […]
Victoria shares a beautiful poem written by Grace of the sun…
With May being almost over I have decided to take this blog into an ongoing series of posts about all that I learn about the mind, body and spirit connection. I’m going to post this series on Saturdays because it will be the culmination of all that I learn throughout the week from basically everywhere. […]
Seeing this number on my phone for the first time tonight on one of my apps is a great significance in my existence… It means the end of a phase and new beginnings… This seems to be my theme for this year, new beginnings. Tomorrow I am seeing a new life coach who is a […]
I’ve been busy today and excited for my son, daughter-in-law and granddaughter (7 months now and loves me and my daughter the most) to come over tonight for a spaghetti dinner. All my kids will be here and my husband who just asked “what are you doing on the computer? Blogging?” Yep I answer ha […]
Victoria commits to trying the practice of Zero Limits vs. Manifestation for 6 months…
Another podcast today which I will post the link at the bottom of this post. Huberman Lab, the podcaster, has a wealth of scientific information put into easy to understand (most of it anyway) nuggets that should be taught in our schools…So far I have watched Gratitude Practice, nutrition for brain health and today was […]
Today has been a good day. Haven’t been wasting my time on things that make no sense. Lots of gardening 👩🌾, podcasts on nutrition for brain health, studying supplements and making some good observations, and organizing my blog. I updated my about on the top menu and added a contact page. Much chaos in my […]
Much angst today telling my woes through writing about ___… I’m depleted of my good energy but I’m still looking up and bought some beautiful flowers 🌸 at our local nursery. Will plant them this evening… I also prayed for Divine Will in my life and all I do after praying for all my loved […]
But first a little brief housekeeping! Thank you to those who are reviewing my nature thought journal! And I want to share that mypersonalrecoveryfromschizophrenia has been rated as one of the top 20 Schizophrenia blogs by Feedspot! I manifested more readership and it is happening! Thanks Feedspot! And for any of you with schizophrenia blogs […]
This is a different type of post today for with new beginnings there is much to consider in my life with choices before me that have never existed until now. I happen to live at the end of a cul de sac so hence the title and it is where I spend most of my […]
First off before the deep stuff~ Pepperoni Pizza ha ha, my son is even picking it up. And then to observe nature in the dusk hours in its finest display in the sky Cloudiness may interfere with its observance But that’s ok because just as I know that ___ is there always as a fish […]
I’ve been at a loss this week in many ways. Too many to write here. There’s been a lot of good too but today is hard. My daughter is sick, I’m her caregiver when she gets sick 🤒 even though she is 28. and others in my life are not doing great right now so […]
The first part of May 2022 series.
Great to be back home after a nice vacation and a relaxing weekend! My usual series for May is in the works! I will be exploring the body, mind and spirit connection focusing on the work of Viktor Frankl’s insight on how man is unity yet multiplicity. And how taking it beyond that can affect […]
Back from vacation day one. Stayed sober by the grace of God, not even a desire as my companions drank beer and mai Thais all day and night. Could have got a contact high from the locals at the park but ran the other way! I like being sober but today I think it all […]
Exploring the use of Logotherapy for any heavy diagnosis focused on the work of Viktor Frankl. More to come…
After a difficult day yesterday here in Maui today was a breath of fresh air and rainbows 🌈. I was proactive with my choice of music 🎶 and what I spent my energy on. It worked! I relaxed in the morning with my husband and then we went snorkeling 🤿! It was the best day […]
Yes, I’m on vacation in Maui but missing my home and all my kids and granddaughter. I’m here with my husband and sister but their drinking matches are getting boring. Today a wreckless stranger attacked 2 gay men right on front street in my favorite town in Maui. This upset me very much. They were […]
This is me taking in the aloha spirit of Maui, my heaven on earth. Never have I felt such peace and tranquillity to my very core as on this island. It is a different vacation here this time… I’m content and blessed to be surrounded by my sister and husband, enjoying nature and all that […]
I’ve been married for 30 years and it has definitely been the hardest and best thing to ever happen to me/us. As I listen on loop to Ed Sheeran/Taylor Swift song, The Joker and the Queen, I am reminded how much we have been through. From humble beginnings, I was a waitress working night shift, […]
Today is a special day for me; it is the 16 year anniversary of receiving the gift of Schizophrenia. The year was 2006. I had prayed to be able to suffer for God and He answered me in giving me the gift of Schizophrenia during Easter Vigil Mass in Our Lady of Guadalupe Church in […]
I started a ketogenic diet April 11, 2022, with no more than 20-30 grams of carbs, to lose weight for my upcoming trip to Maui. Well the results are unclear yet but brain started feeling different yesterday. I am in light ketosis already and have found studies leading to a Youtube video (see below for […]
Flashback Tuesday! Welcome to this series, which I published during the pandemic in 2020. Here are the topics for the May 2020 series. Feel free to click on the link to go to the page. Enjoy! yoga having a spiritual practice meditation gardening walking cleaning tidying proper rest taking supplements writing music having a daily […]
