Energy and Motivation…

There are a plethora of ways to get energy: some already have it in their natural state (not me), caffeinated (used to be me), and herbal supplements (which is where I am today). There is also a type of energy that is created when one has a deadline or exciting event to prepare for, examples could be a holiday, vacation or party.

I’m noticing this more and more in my observations of my activity in my every day life now that I am in full remission from Schizophrenia/Schizoaffective Disorder. These last few months have been major catch up, for what “normal” people take for granted, the ability to be motivated and stay on top of things.

It was awesome today when I got everything done on my list and now I get to blog! My pièce de résistance (main creative work ha ha, I had to google it).

But for me now everything is important, from how I fold the laundry better and more organized, to dusting properly rather than just suffering through it wishing I was done. I don’t mind even tedious tasks and am now thinking about how long I have suffered from lack of motivation and natural energy- pretty much my whole life, I could never finish things unless my mom and dad made me.

This is night and day. Another extreme benefit to taking my new herbal supplement, Kratom. If you would like to read a rather lengthy article to give to healthcare providers about it click here. It has given me a new lease on life and I’ll take it!

What motivates you? What gives you energy? How do you achieve goals?

Please feel free to comment or send me an email using my contact form:)



Dopamine and Schizophrenia…

Another podcast today which I will post the link at the bottom of this post. Huberman Lab, the podcaster, has a wealth of scientific information put into easy to understand (most of it anyway) nuggets that should be taught in our schools…So far I have watched Gratitude Practice, nutrition for brain health and today was mesmerized with examining dopamine and ways to get it easily and through supplements, one of which I was taking but found out today that it is actually quite dangerous for someone with Schizophrenia. Only took it 3 days in a row and I was fine but will not be taking it anymore. It is called Mucana Pruriens and it has L-dopa in it which is a precursor to dopamine.

I’m sure many of us have heard of dopamine but may not really know what it is so here is a simple explanation- it is a neuromodulator and controls not only pleasure, but also motivation, energy levels, focus and more. It basically controls the dance within our make up. Pretty cool!

So this led me to further research on why I can’t take this supplement. Does Schizophrenia have high or low levels of dopamine? He didn’t really get into it so I did some heavy research. If anyone is interested in reading some articles on this further, feel free to get in touch with my contact info. But I’m going to share what I learnt today about dopamine and how it affects schizophrenia.

It was really confusing as there is so much still unknown around Schizophrenia, from where it comes from with a strong propensity of it being genetic (I’m adopted so don’t know for me), to environmental. And also around the dopamine levels present in us with schizophrenia. It stated in the same article that there is too much dopamine causing positive symptoms (hallucinations, delusions, voices, messages in my case) and too little dopamine causing negative symptoms (lack of motivation). But life is a contradiction so I don’t mind when I find them in scientific literature.

For further study on positive and negative symptoms feel free to search my site as I have written quite a bit about both right here on my blog. I have suffered from both positive and negative symptoms but my anti-psychotics address both so doing much better these days but was hoping for further motivation with new supplements.

I’m not giving up as there was one he mentions that does not cause psychosis like Mucana Pruriens might, of which I am not willing to chance as I am doing so well right now with my disorder. Glad I found out and I feel God led me to this podcast, as there are so many by Huberman Lab that I am interested in from gut health, developing good habits and goals to more on brain health. I am setting my limit to one a day because it is a lot and over an hour of really well explained information.

So here is the brief summary of this podcast I stole from the comments with much thanks to ElderFox Documentaries~

So to recap.. 1) Don’t trigger dopamine all the time, even if gained through various sources. Try to dopamine fast. 2) Cold showers can raise dopamine without the crash. 3) Don’t layer in dopamine raising activities with things you want to get more motivated for. E.g Listening to music while working. 4) Don’t reward yourself before or after hard activities, let the activity itself produce dopamine.

Also he mentions social interactions along with supplements. If you are interested in listening to it here ya go- Controlling Your Dopamine For Motivation, Focus & Satisfaction | Huberman Lab Podcast #39

In the comments and description on Youtube there are time stamps if you are only interested in parts of it. I just checked and it is actually over 2 hours long! Whew that’s where my day went to.

But did finish my planting flowers in my side garden!

I will report back on the new supplements I am going to try after a month on them. If anyone decides to try any of them (except for no Mucana Pruriens, which is really only intended for people with Parkinson’s) please let me know and we’ll compare notes:)



Bits and pieces…

I am in a really weird mood so this blog will be a little different. I am pumped up to live my best life every day and this blog will be a little bit about how I accomplish a lot.

It is Superbowl Sunday so the family is in front of the tv and I am at the computer. Cooking all day and clean up soon. But so much going on I observe. As my husband and daughter watch the game I indulge in the satisfaction that they have a good relationship and even though she will be moving out soon I know that she will still be here often because she loves hanging out with us!

Off to do dishes…

Back after a few detours. I am a servant but I don’t mind it. Today it was spoiling my husband and daughter while they watched the super bowl. Go Chiefs!

Now time to get down to business.

How are you doing?

Physical- good, a little tipsy from some wine but ate healthy all day and exercised. Took all my meds and supplements that give me energy but I have decided to cut way back on coffee. I have gone from a pot a day to one to two cups! This is major but I have been having digestive issues so trying new routines to help but definitely not as focused as when I drink coffee.

Mental- I am good. I did have a melt down on Friday though which was caused from heat, physical exertion and not aligning to God’s will for me. I know this sounds strange but if I am not in His will I rarely get these melt downs. Might bring it up to my pdoc but we shall see if it happens again.

Spiritual- all I do is for Him who made Heaven and Earth. I love all religions. But especially Christianity, Catholicism and Buddhism. I am right now listening to a very grounding podcost by Domyo Burke called Zen studies. I don’t understand everything in fact most of it goes over my head but her soothing voice lulls me to this happy place with Zen thought through stories and quotes and direct application at times. Highly recommend.

So that’s my check in. How was yours? Hopefully you are making progress with your life. Mine is currently in the kicking butt and taking names phase. Which basically translates to I am doing awesome with my goals right now.

Do you feel the shift in energy for our world in us and outside too? I do and many I know feel this February shift to greater things.

I forgot to include what I set out to explain when I started this blog tonight. How do I get so much done? I plan by writing out my goals, I think how to get them done, I organize every chance I get and I do, I just do it. the supplement mental acuity by Shaklee helps greatly.

peace, love light and joy



My theme for 2021…

Where will I spend my energy? that is my theme for this year and every moment of 2021.

Time is not guaranteed so I am reevaluating many aspects of my life and working at maneuvering around obstacles that will always be present but heck I’m not gonna give up!

Today is a good day! It is Sunday so restful day but I already played and lost two games of chess, did hot yoga, switched to tea mid morning from coffee, blogging, organizing my year by months (nothing spectacular), attended part of Mass and now going on walk with daughter!

Music this year so far is George Michael. Rip dear George. He was only 53 when he passed, so young, and I am 51. Time is not guaranteed to anyone…

Make the most of it

peace, love light and joy