I would like to get to the place where I did everything in a meditative state. Do things mindfully, enjoy them, relax into them. Even the hard parts of the day when something goes wrong, to just notice it allowing the distraction, and come back to center of my mind, which is clear now and without delusions for the most part. I have always had the tendency to be grandiose with my ideas so it is hard to separate the delusions with excitement of life, and then meditating upon the excitement the day has unfolded.
I am getting used to not going anywhere. Staying at home. Meditating more and allowing it more into my day. I have many rituals, tendency towards OCD is a part of my diagnosis. It’s hard to relax your mind when so much is turning around up there. But I use cbd oil and other products to enhance my meditation practice.
Meditation is not just zoning out although that is sometimes where my mind goes.
I really need to get better at it but find it hard when I am obsessed with my music or other thoughts.
But I have been taught not to worry when that happens but to just go with it. Eventually you can relax your thoughts enough that nothing disturbs you.
Here’s my definition of what meditation is…
Meditation is the relaxing of your mind to try to induce a peaceful state.
I get there quite often when I least expect it.
I find peace and quiet to be my choice drug when my life seems out of control…
It is hard to stop and smell the roses all the time so I try to meditate with music to help relax my thoughts. If an intruding thought of some misdeed of my past enters my mind I crush it out with memories of good times replacing the bad.
I also use lavender through the form of incense and oil and also natural mood relaxers as mentioned above).
I sometimes sit for hours in my blue chair in my green meditation room.
Sometimes I think about God and my love for Him. Sometimes I think of nothing. Sometimes I think of my loved ones especially my grandma who died many years ago. Honoring our ancestors can also be a form of meditation.
Sometimes I just don’t feel like it though and that is ok too. Going with the natural flow of the day is what works best for me.